me-TO-euu

2010-01-29T08:44:00.001-08:00

守住你的承诺太傻
只怪自己被爱迷惑
说过的话已不重要
可是我从不曾忘掉

守住你的承诺太傻
只怪自己被爱迷惑
醉过的心那里去找
对着满满空虚回忆
怎么逃

2009-12-24T00:04:00.001-08:00

u are the one i miss in camp.
but i think i shall keep in in my heart.
=)

2009-12-04T11:47:00.000-08:00

i seriously feel like crying now.
i havent move on at all.

2009-11-23T14:41:00.000-08:00

如果非要在这份爱上面加上一个期限，我希望是一万年。

2009-10-22T21:50:00.001-07:00

I looked in all the places you aren’t. I just can’t find the places you are. I only know that you are where I am not.”

2009-10-20T19:58:00.001-07:00

i really want to talk to u again.

everything else doesnt matter anymore.

we used to know each other inside out.

i hope we can remain the same.

at least on talking terms.

if the chance come.

i will take it.

to be able to talk to u is enough.

not like strangers.

it hurts to be 最熟悉的陌生人.

i dont want that.

2009-10-18T15:37:00.000-07:00

多想要向过去告別当季节不停更迭
却还是少一点坚决在这寂寞的季节

2009-09-25T22:02:00.000-07:00

这样吧再爱我有缘的话

2009-09-24T08:53:00.000-07:00

你说着我听着像海浪打着沙滩烧着
你的忧伤大于快乐连彩虹都只剩下一种颜色
我听着你说着像刀子划的隐隐痛着
就因为爱没有规则所以心痛了死了回不去了
但是我存在着我一直存在着
和你一起的照片仍在我的手机上贴着
爱会永远永远你说的
离开我的时候却没舍不得
我真的存在着我一直存在着
不管是疯的气的我受着我紧紧手握着
傻傻的陪着守着证明你值得
但我会笑着因为一切都值得
你说着我听着像海浪打着沙滩烧着
你的忧伤大于快乐连彩虹都只剩下一种颜色
我听着你说着像刀子划的隐隐痛着
就因为爱没有规则所以心痛了死了回不去了但是我存在着我一直存在着和你一起的照片仍在我的手机上贴着爱会永远永远你说的
离开我的时候却没舍不得
我真的存在着我一直存在着
不管是疯的气的我受着我紧紧手握着
傻傻的陪着守着证明你值得
但我会笑着因为一切都值得
我真的存在着我一直存在着
和你一起的照片仍在我的手机上贴着
爱会永远永远你说的
离开我的时候却没舍不得
我真的存在着我一直存在着
不管是疯的气的我受着我紧紧手握着
傻傻的陪着守着证明你值得
但我会笑着因为一切都值得

2009-09-24T08:46:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry for me buggin' you
sorry for being such a fool
God knows I've tried but I can't let go
I'm crazy 'bout you know who
I'm sorry for me needing you
sorry girl that you don't feel it too
I get the point, should be a man about itI've never been good at that - no no
forgive me for being me
I've tried to let go
I know you got a boyfriend - another man
another guy by your side
someone who hopefully treats you right
but you don't know how much I wish that I was
your boyfriend - that other guy
the only one who's allowed
in your room to lay in your arms at night
now you don't know how much I wish that I was your boyfriend
I'm sorry for me wanting you
sorry for not playing by the rules
but what would you do if you were in my shoes
feeling lost and blue
I'm sorry for me lovin' you
sorry for being such a fool
God knows I've tried but I can't let go
I'm crazy 'bout you know who
forgive me for being me
I've tried to let go
I know you got a boyfriend - another man

2009-09-20T18:51:00.000-07:00

i am so screwed.

2009-09-13T14:48:00.001-07:00

this post is just for u.
half a month since i last saw you. and now i have no chance anymore.
i remember playing with u since u were young.
at the void deck. u were so cute.
bringing u out to play everytime we have the chance.
seeing u grow up bit by bit, bigger and bigger, fatter and fatter.
u are so happy and jump around everytime u went out.
u have a very strong will to live.
u manage to live on despite of what happen to u.
u had to bear the pain of getting ur teeth trimmed every month.
taking medicine, digging ur very dirty ears, cleaning ur eyes.
i am really sorry that i neglected u.
i believe u hate getting caged up all the time.
slowly we brought u out less often. to the extent of once a month. or maybe lesser.
i am really sorry. every little time i spend with u, i will remember them for the rest of my life.
i hope u can enjoy yourself in heaven now. free from ur illness and all those.
last but not least. i love u boing boing. and i will miss u.
u passed away at the age of 2 years 8 months and 1 day old.
PS. i will name my dog after you. to remind me of u everytime.

2009-09-10T00:38:00.000-07:00

二十年前－
当爱在最浓厚的时候选择离去
当误会的残局被时间隔离
当泪水只能化解不能言说的爱
一张旧琴谱幻化时间的流转让我看见未来的真爱对的人在对的地点
你看见只有你才能看得见的我
我爱上只有你才看的见我的那种感觉
那计算一百零八步让我第一眼看见你的步伐的距离
扯不开时间对你我的隔离
错的时间旨意我们无法再相遇
唯独我用思念破解世俗冷漠的曲解
我不再讲起那神秘的预见二十年后的期待
我却已不够时间再熟悉那张我热爱的脸 ......
二十年后－
你渐渐沉默阴暗下去的颜色
时光的飞梭带走你没有了气息的关于我爱不爱你的问题
隔着时空我们用同样的桌面镌刻笃定不移誓死相爱的誓言
为了让你看见真实的我我
终于走上你来时的路
用你寻找我的距离延长我对你坚定的回归
用归去的加速度印证对你需要的迫切
用我虔信的追求破解误会的谜题
就算现实将我归去的路瓦解
我知道真实的你就在眼前
最后一个沉重的音阶
一定会带我回到你的身边......

2009-09-07T22:12:00.000-07:00

u let me grow up and learn independence

2009-09-07T18:29:00.000-07:00

i had this fucked up dream last night. not really fucked up. but quite la.
i kinda hate dreaming nowadays.
it deprive me of my rest, show me images of things that will never happen, happen. give me this false hope, giving me a weird feeling after i wake up. and the feeling can last up to one week.
since the day my dreams was taken away from me. i never liked to dream anymore.

2009-09-06T19:58:00.000-07:00

i saw this on the net.
朋友妻不可欺，偶尔骑骑没关系。

but i learnt another one from zhi kang last time.
朋友妻不可欺，朋友不在要趁机。

2009-09-06T15:37:00.000-07:00

i cannot take it anymore.
FUCK!!
I think thats it.
NO MORE.

2009-09-01T03:12:00.000-07:00

累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的
就停止了

听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏
都难掌握

如果我变成回忆
退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体
拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆
终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你
看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你
我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的
最舍不得

如果我变成回忆
退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体
拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆
终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你
看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你
我不怪你

如果我变成回忆
最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气
霸占你心里
每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平
请你尽力
把我忘记

2009-08-28T22:29:00.000-07:00

what if the fortune telling thing is true?
the one which i have one line when i close my palm?
so i have to be alone for the rest of my life?
maybe that is meant to be.

2009-08-28T22:25:00.000-07:00

I was lost in a lonely place
Could hardly believe it
Holding on to yesterdays
Far, far too long
Now I believe it's ok cause
This time it's real
I lay my love on you
It's all I wanna do
Every time I breathe I feel brand new
You open up my heart
Show me all your love, and walk right through
As I lay my love on you

2009-08-24T21:00:00.000-07:00

一切都早已命中注定。

2009-08-24T18:29:00.000-07:00

我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻
不准问值不值得

我的快乐会回来的
离开不是谁给了谁的选择

我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻
不准问值不值得

我的快乐会回来的
离开不是你给了我的选择

2009-08-24T16:35:00.000-07:00

now. i finally realise. that till today.
i still love u. only u. i have tried to let go.
but maybe there is no way i can do it.
u are still there in my heart.
maybe 5 years. 10 years? 20 years? 30 years later, fate will come again.
so lets just wait and see. right now.
i can only wait and see.
maybe if i try hard, everything that i have lost
might come back someday.
i really hope so.
but i shall just keep my love for u deep in my heart.
i shall not disturb u.
if we have fate.
everything will happen by itself.
no need to rush. no need to force.
i shall wait and see.
and in the mean time.
i shall carry on and make myself a better person.

2009-08-16T08:41:00.000-07:00

i have been thinking about u for the past few days. WTF!!!!
maybe i have learnt to let go.
maybe....
all i know now is
i still love u.
but i just wish that u are happy right now.
i think i am ready.
to talk to you again.
provided that u dun guai lan me everytime u talk to me.
cuz like everytime u tok to me.
u only can scold.

2009-08-03T10:26:00.001-07:00

since the day you said goodbye, I've been counting the days when hopefully you'll be back in my arms again, but something scares me, ‘cause I might be counting for the rest of my life.

2009-08-03T08:45:00.001-07:00

which is harder?
Hoping that the one you love will fall for you?
Or trying to love someone who loves you?
Both hard isn’t it?
But the hardest is when you fall for the one who loves you
just when the one you love is finally falling for you.

2009-08-03T08:41:00.001-07:00

falling in love is like looking at the stars. If you pick one out of the billions and stare at it long enough, all the others just melt away.

so maybe one should change the focus. and one can start searching for another star again.

2009-08-02T15:55:00.000-07:00

花接受凋零

风接受追寻

心的伤还有一些不要紧

我接受你的决定

你将会被谁抱紧

唱什么歌哄他开心

我想着天空什么时候会放晴

地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐

不是我的

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了

伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福一半甜的一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

我只能唱着一半的歌

2009-07-29T11:33:00.001-07:00

maybe i wasnt even sure what i want.

so just forget it.

2009-07-28T13:48:00.000-07:00

tell me.
why the fuck am i sitting here all alone in my room thinking of you in the middle of the night.

why is it that 6 month have passed and i still cannot let go.
this moment right now is exactly the time 6 months ago we broke up.
can someone like teach me to move on??

i have been trying out different jobs after i left school. to find out what i really love to do.
but why haven i been trying different girlfriend after i broke up??
maybe this is bullshit. haha.

Who do you turn to when the only person
who can stop you from crying
is the one who is making you cry

2009-07-28T13:43:00.000-07:00

It's funny how a person can break your heart, and you can still love them with all the little pieces.

The saddest part isn't that with each passing day I feel like I need you more, but it's the fact that you don't need me at all.

2009-07-28T11:43:00.000-07:00

"And so now I've finally gotten the courage
to give up and let go of you.
And no, I haven't moved on to another girl;
I've just moved on."

2009-07-23T11:29:00.000-07:00

seriously. tell me. What do you live for.. when all you were living for is gone?

i really dont know.

2009-07-23T10:06:00.000-07:00

Forgetting doesn't make it all better, it just makes it hurt again when I remember

I know I act like I don't care, but it's just a cover-up because I care too much to tell anyone

It's hard to answer the question 'what's wrong?' when nothing's right

You never see my tears, but that doesn't mean I don't cry. You never feel my pain, but that doesn't mean I don't hurt. You only see me smile, and that doesn't mean that I am happy

2009-07-23T09:46:00.000-07:00

Nobody really cares if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy

It's sad to think you'll never be mine, it's even sadder to realize I knew it all the time.

When you love a person, you are giving them the power to hurt you.

2009-07-22T12:53:00.000-07:00

i have hidden all this deep down in my heart till today. i cannot take it anymore. i smoked in front of them. just to gain ur attention. i act like i am very happy. so that no one will ask about u anymore. i work everyday. so i can have no time to think about u. i drink all the time. so i can get drunk enough to forget. this year. i lost almost everything. my school, u, my parents are overseas. my friends are all studying or in the army. when i need someone to talk to. i can only write them here. cuz even if i tell someone. they wouldnt understand how it feels to be me. maybe this is just a piece of cake compared to the people that lives in the 3rd world country. but i need someone to be there. i have this feeling bursting out of me. the loneliness. the helplessness. i know i brought this upon myself. i have no one to blame. but at least give me a place to vent it all out. i am suffocating.
i remember watching mayday concert with u. on the day that u are sick. i remember taking lots of photos with u. and till now. all my past photos are 90% the ones with u. i remember that u like mashed potato so much i had to buy them for u during ur trainings. i remember going to OBS with u. and kissed u with my sausage lips. i remember the first time u rebond ur hair. and meeting me after that to ask me how u look. i remember taking boing boing down for a walk. and play with him together. i remember u crying so sad. on the day u say his head tilt. i remember taking boing boing to the vet with u. and ask about his conditions each time i remember throwing my temper on u. even though i was in the wrong. i remember waking up everyday. just to wait for you at yew tee MRT. and send u to work. i remember going to pasir ris tgt. and looking at puppies. i remember shopping with u for new year clothes. i remember roller blading with u at east coast park. and pushed u to the grass in case u fall on hard grounds. i remember waiting at teck whye. just to see you for half an hour before sending u to school. i remember waiting at jurong east station. just to fetch u from work. i remember eating on time. so i dun get gastric pain and make u worried. i remember waiting at pj. just to send u home. i remember going to zoo with u. i remember our overseas trip. i remember both of us are the first to catch a fish before your family members. i remember snorkling with u. looking at the underwater creatures tgt. i remember sitting at the seaside bar with you. drinking tgt for the first time. i remember the first time u go to underwater world. with me. i remember reminding u to stand properly. in case anything happens to ur knee. i remember u learning all sorts of badminton shots. just to play with me. i remember u sitting on the pirate ship with me. and telling me u are scared. i remember walking around genting with u. hand in hand. i remember u scolding me fuck for the first time. and crying in my arms the next morning i show up. i remember u cooking porridge for me. when i broke my leg and cannot walk. i remember u accompanying me to the sinseh. just to get my leg treated. i remember u crying with me. when u gave the the 30 post cards u wrote for me. i remember how excited i was. when ur father invite me over to his birthday dinner. i remember playing pool with u. almost everyday after your work. i remember watching movies with u everytime a show that u like comes out. i remember buying milk for a little kitten. cuz u said it look pitiful. i remember going to sentosa with u. with us helping each other to put sun tan lotions. i remember how much i love u. and how much u love me. and till now den i realise. is that i still love u as much as before. maybe even more. its not that i ignore u. but i know. i couldnt face it. i dont dare to look at ur blog. ur facebook. your everything. i thought i could fall in love easily again. and forget all about u. but i realise that i cant. maybe for now? but right now. i think i am not able to do it. or i should say. i cant love any one else. maybe someday we will be tgt again. but now. i really hope u are happy with the other guy. i give u my blessings. all the best in everything u do.

2009-07-22T06:29:00.000-07:00

maybe all this thing i did was just to attract your attention,
maybe this is childish.
maybe i shouldnt have done it in the first place.
maybe i still cant let go.
maybe i haven change.
maybe i am the same whole person.
maybe i said all those things to spite u.
maybe i did it infront of them so they can tell u.
maybe i am retarded.
maybe all this should stop.
maybe i should stop acting like a small kid.
maybe i should stop doing what i need not do.
maybe i did not do it at all.
maybe i just put on an act.
maybe.........................

2009-07-22T04:21:00.000-07:00

MR LONELY!!!

Lonely

Im Mr Lonely

I have nobody

For my own

2009-07-22T04:02:00.000-07:00

maybe u understand.
maybe it seems like nothing to u.

but have u thought about it.
do u really know how it feels?

abandon by everything.
by the ones u truly love?

with no school to study
and nowhere to go.

parents are overseas
friends are in camp.

whenever i feel alone
who will understand?

everyday i come home
no one to talk to.

all i am wishing for
is a pair of listening ears

but i guess now i really know
what i am thinking deep down.

all this things i do
is just to make myself numb

i have no more confidence
not one bit.

all i can wait is
for the sun to shine again.

but everything will never
be the same again.

never the same
again.................

2009-07-10T12:08:00.000-07:00

2009-07-07T11:48:00.000-07:00

请你一定要比我幸福

才不枉费我狼狈退出

再痛也不说苦

爱不用抱歉来弭补

至少我能成全你的追逐

请记得你要比我幸福

才值得我对自己残酷

我默默的倒数

最后再把你看清楚

看你眼里的我好馍糊

慢慢被放逐

2009-06-28T12:13:00.000-07:00

才离开没多久就开始

担心今天的你过得好不好

整个画面是你

想你想的睡不着

嘴嘟嘟那可爱的模样

还有在你身上香香的味道

我的快乐是你

想你想的都会笑

没有你在我有多难熬(没有你在我有多难熬多烦恼)

没有你烦我有多烦恼(没有你烦我有多烦恼多难熬)

穿过云层我试着努力向你奔跑

爱才送到你却已在别人怀抱

就是开不了口让她知道

我一定会呵护着你也逗你笑

你对我有多重要我后悔没让你知道

安静的听你撒娇看你睡着一直到老

就是开不了口让她知道

就是那么简单几句我办不到

整颗心悬在半空我只能够远远看着

这些我都做得到但那个人已经不是我

2009-06-26T15:56:00.000-07:00

世界上最远的距离
不是生与死的距离
而是我站在你面前
你不知道我爱你
世界上最远的距离
不是我站在你面前
你不知道我爱你
而是爱到了痴迷
却不能说我爱你
世界上最远的距离
不是我不能说我爱你
而是想你痛彻心脾
却只能深埋心底
世界上最远的距离
不是我不能说我想你
而是彼此相爱却不能够在一起
世界上最远的距离
不是彼此相爱却不能够在一起
而是明知道真爱无敌
却装作毫不在意

世界上最远的距离
不是树与树的距离
而是同根生长的树枝
却无法在风中相依
世界上最远的距离
不是树枝无法相依
而是相互了望的星星
却没有交汇的轨迹
世界上最远的距离
不是星星之间的轨迹
而是纵然轨迹交汇
却在转瞬间无处寻觅
世界上最远的距离
不是瞬间便无处寻觅
而是尚未相遇
便注定无法相聚
世界上最远的距离
是鱼与飞鸟的距离
一个在天
一个却深潜海底

2009-06-24T05:05:00.000-07:00

so long since i hear from you already. haiz...
what to do??

2009-06-21T08:40:00.000-07:00

coincidence?? never mind.

maybe i need some time.
maybe not that fast.
maybe a year or two.

i really dont know what kind of feeling is this.
i wish to talk to you.
but what can i say??
"hi hello"
"how are you??"
"hows boing boing??"
"oh ok"
"heh heh heh"

what else can i say?? i really dont know.
5 months is not long.
but neither is it short.
but many things changed.

lets just hope things will change for the better.

2009-06-17T16:53:00.001-07:00

her that I love, I wish to be free -- even from me

2009-06-07T03:15:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

2009-06-02T14:29:00.000-07:00

u stole my heart.
how do i get it back??

2009-06-02T11:24:00.001-07:00

容忍的人其实并不笨, 只是宁可对自己残忍

2009-05-31T07:59:00.000-07:00

我不愿放弃却要故意默默允许
我答应自己爱你的心绝口不提
总是以为终究化作云淡风轻
爱你到底
痛了自己
我不愿放弃却要故意默默允许
我答应自己爱你的心绝口不提
所有结局在这夜里都已成形
爱到了底
痛的是我的真心

2009-05-23T15:41:00.001-07:00

so long since i blogged.
drinking alot this few days. haha.
work place provide lots of beer. haha.

seen all kinds of things ever since i got dismissed.
now that i do not have lessons.
i will have to learn from my surrounding.

2009-05-13T15:34:00.000-07:00

what goes around comes around. its just like karma.

so dont do to things to others that u dont wish to be done to.

2009-05-10T14:00:00.000-07:00

i know i have said it. but doing it is so damn difficult.

talking abt it all day. but i guess i cant do it.

ah ong is still ah ong.

ah ong wanting to be a hong.

not possible.

2009-05-07T15:04:00.000-07:00

its my birthday today. haha.
quite different.

today my cousins came over to my house at midnight to give me a surprise.
i really appreciate it. thanks sis for planning this surprise for me. i really love u all. bringing the cake all the way to my house. waiting for me to come home. singing the birthday song for me. so long since i had this overwhelming family feeling. u all had school the next day. but all of u accompany me till late night. really touched. =) i made 3 birthday wishes. hope thay will come true. sorry that i came back late. making all of u wait. so late that ah jo fell asleep already. thanks sis, ah yang, ah ben, ah leen. ah jo too. even though she fell asleep. =)
chat for the night. and i learned alot of things. thanks for encouraging and motivating me.

sis told me a relationship is just like a game of poker. never let the other party knows whats ur card that is covered down. if they know it. theres nothing more to play. and never let the other party know how much u love them. keep the guessing. they have to add in more chips to know the covered card. but u have to up the stake everytime. like if they want to know how much u love them, they have to put in more effort. den u have to make it more challenging to know ur heart. i think its very true.

next. thanks sengying for working with me. tiring but lots of satisfaction. not a bad place to work. will be celebrating with sy , houji and co. soon. looking forward. will update more.

and thanks to all that wished me happy birthday. love u all. =)

2009-05-03T12:45:00.000-07:00

FUCK!! i really dont know what to do. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

saying is one thing. doing is another.

birthday is coming up in like 3 or 4 days.

working my ass off this few days.

singing on saturday.

so random.

i want to go into army fast. so i have no time to think of other things.

what sengying's brother tell me is right. i should understand.

maybe i am just weak.

i shall not go there anymore.

when ever i am reaching my goal. u must come and spoil it. fuck.

this is my mental training period. after this, will be my physical training time.

looking back on the things i've done.

2009-04-26T22:02:00.000-07:00

想喊你
却没敢开口
最后只有
留着泪看你走
我想问我
是否真愿意
就这样放手
既然无法挽留
只好接受
从今以后
你要寂寞多久
谁能给予你
我这般的温柔
也许是多虑了
你离开我会过得更快乐
可对於软弱的我
回忆就足够

分开以后
每当想到你就会低下头
紧握着手
不知过了多久
我相信你
也会有一样的辛酸难受
都曾经深爱过谁
又怎能舍得
在离开你之后
想快乐也只是一种强求
一个人
怎麽过都是愁
懂得拥有
却未必能让你为我停留
最后只剩遗憾
拉住我不放手

oh~~~~ya~~~~~
分开以后
每当想到你就会低下头
紧握的手
不知过了多久
我相信你
也会有一样的辛酸难受
都曾经深爱过谁
又怎能舍得
在离开你之后
想快乐也只是一种强求
一个人怎麽过都是愁
懂得拥有
却未必能让你为我停留
最后只剩遗憾
拉住我不放手

2009-04-25T19:30:00.000-07:00

You are stubborn and like to hold on to things, not wanting to let go of anything or anyone. You are slow to anger, but when you do get worked up to a rage - everyone step aside! You also have a selfish streak and can be quite sneaky as well. People often see you as helpful and agreeable. You also tend to be suspicious of others and question their motives.

Advice: Learn to forgive and let go of your past disappointments. Learn from your mistakes and have faith in yourself and others as well.

2009-04-22T01:53:00.000-07:00

oh my. she is so hot.

2009-04-18T11:44:00.001-07:00

That girl that girl she seems so fine i cant take her of my mind I got to find a way to make her Mine

2009-04-15T13:15:00.000-07:00

early in the morning i put breakfast at your table

一夜都没睡但我不曾如此清醒

我早餐准备了你爱吃的东西

这次换我等你被咖啡的香味叫醒

想要找回每天早晨对我微笑着的你

还能够做些什么代替我的歉意

总是望着我小心翼翼顺着我呼吸

而我竟然理所当然让你精疲力尽

you were my superwoman

安静的在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔

boy, i am only human

我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错不能失去你

ooh-babe---ooh—babe---

you fought your way through the rush hour

try to make it home just for me

月光下静静靠着彼此只求夜长一点

有多久没有好好看你只是认定了我

无论在什么时候回头都有你的笑容

是我忽略了你也会有想要哭的感觉

没有一种付出应该永远心甘情愿

再给被宠坏的男人最后一次机会

换我忍耐换我等待不要真的弃权

you were my superwoman

安静的在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔

boy, i am only human

我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错不能失去你

ooh-babe---

是我把爱想得太简单

以为只要我存在就能让你取暖

心里唯一的superwoman没有人能代替

不能想像更不能原谅这样让爱化成灰烬

you were my superwoman

安静的在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔

boy, i am only human(希望只是一个只是一个人)

我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错(不能失去你)

if you feel it in your heart and you understand me.stop right where you are, everybody sing along with me

you were my superwoman

安静的在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔

boy, i am only human

我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错(不能失去你)

you were my superwoman

安静的在身边无条件给我梦寐以求的温柔

boy, i am only human

我怎么不懂你多寂寞残忍的犯了错(不能失去你)

2009-04-14T11:08:00.000-07:00

那一天是谁先说goodbye
也许是我活该
让你走的太快
不懂不懂
要怎么才能让你明白
电视里让人哭的对白
句子里的悲哀
不要假装你不在
i try i try 永远不会离开
oh baby
对不起已经没有用
你已不会再回头
拼了命去改过却还是空
没有结果

爱爱爱让我还不明白
什么痛痛痛别再互相伤害
oh baby
爱爱爱让我还不明白
什么痛痛痛别再互相伤害
伤害

在我家中等着你回来
煮了你最喜欢的晚餐
也许是我活该让你走的太快
我会在你身边等着你醒来
准备你最喜欢的咖啡和早餐
原来这是恋爱
终於明白
说了对不起已经没有用
你已不会再回头
拼了命去改过却还是空
没有结果

爱爱爱让我还不明白
什么痛痛痛别再互相伤害
oh baby
爱爱爱让我还不明白
什么痛痛痛别再互相伤害
伤害

站在的雨中
要自己别太冲动
这一次我不会
就这样轻易放手
是你不懂是你不懂
请听我解说
因为你就是我的唯一
我会永远永远保护着你
ye~yes i do yes i do
让我保护着你说了
爱爱爱让我还不明白
什么痛痛痛别再互相伤害
oh baby
爱爱爱让我还不明白
什么痛痛痛别再互相伤害
伤害

2009-04-11T10:44:00.000-07:00

finally. i have found someone exactly like me.

2009-04-11T10:33:00.000-07:00

I want nobody nobody but You
I want nobody nobody but You
난 다른 사람은 싫어 니가 아니면 싫어
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
난 싫은데 왜 날 밀어내려고 하니
자꾸 내말은 듣지 않고
왜 이렇게 다른 남자에게
날 보내려 하니 어떻게 이러니
날 위해 그렇단 그 말
넌 부족하다는 그 말 이젠 그만해
넌 나를 알잖아
왜 원하지도 않는걸 강요해
I want nobody nobody but You
I want nobody nobody but You
난 다른 사람은 싫어 니가 아니면 싫어
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
I want nobody nobody but You
I want nobody nobody but You
난 다른 사람은 싫어 니가 아니면 싫어
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
난 좋은데 난 행복한데
너만 있으면 돼 더 바랄게 없는데
누굴 만나서 행복하란 거야
난 널 떠나서 행복할 수 없어
날 위해 그렇단 그 말
넌 부족하다는 그 말
말이 안 되는 말이란 걸 왜 몰라
니가 없이 어떻게 행복해
I want nobody nobody but You
I want nobody nobody but You
난 다른 사람은 싫어 니가 아니면 싫어
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
I want nobody nobody but You
I want nobody nobody but You
난 다른 사람은 싫어 니가 아니면 싫어
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
I don''''t want nobody body body
I don''''t want nobody body body
나는 정말 니가 아니면
니가 아니면 싫단 말야 Ah~
I want nobody nobody but You
I want nobody nobody but You
난 다른 사람은 싫어 니가 아니면 싫어
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
I want nobody nobody but You
I want nobody nobody but You
난 다른 사람은 싫어 니가 아니면 싫어
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
rap
Back to the days when we were
so young and wild and free
모든게 너무나 꿈만 같았던 그때로
돌아가고 싶은데
왜 자꾸 나를 밀어내려 해
why do you push me away.
I don''''t want nobody nobody
Nobody nobody but you

2009-04-10T09:46:00.000-07:00

a lie is used to deceive others. but a white lie is used to deceive others and yourself.

i am really lost. 2 years. i really dunno what to do now. left with the last try. and i shall wait.

if not.............................................

2009-04-08T10:00:00.001-07:00

我将我自己反锁在房间
彻夜未眠
当手中的风筝已经都断了线
越飘越远

2009-04-08T01:45:00.000-07:00

i had a dream yesterday. damn weird one. but it seems to tell me how to solve every problem i have right now.

2009-04-07T07:57:00.000-07:00

i am now really a coldsock

2009-04-07T07:27:00.000-07:00

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our good-bye

But only love can say
try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

2009-04-07T07:21:00.000-07:00

some say love

it is a river

that drowns tender reed

some say love

it is a razor

that leaves your soul to bleed

some say love it is a hunger,

that endless aching need

i say love it is a flower

and you it's only seed

it's the heart afraid of breaking

that never learns to dance

it's the dream afraid of waking

that never takes the chance

it's the one who won't be taken

who can not seem to give

and the soul afraid of dying

that never learns to live

when the night has been too lonely

and the road has been too long

and you think

that love is not only for the lucky and the strong

just remember in the winter

far beneath the bitter snow

lies the seed that with the sun's love

in the spring becomes the rose

2009-04-07T01:04:00.000-07:00

is there really coincidence in this world?? now my house uses your old washing powder.

2009-04-07T00:45:00.000-07:00

我在搞笑藉着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了
突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了
我在搞笑却在醉后眼泪拼命飙
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天
突然觉得又何必辛劳
对谁炫耀
还在搞笑是否拥有麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹
希望听到有人会提到
你好不好

2009-04-07T00:28:00.000-07:00

nothing can ever describe how i feel at this very moment. there is alot of feelings in me waiting to burst out.

tired+regret+sad+irritated+fucked up+angry+dont understand why+many many more = bursting apart!!!!

2009-04-06T23:50:00.000-07:00

想着你的温柔
想着你的模样
我放不下
都说过了再见
我们各自飞翔
各自长大
抱紧爱会挣扎
放开爱会心慌
神也很忙到
底要实现哪个愿望
离开你
那麽傻
可以后侮吗???????

2009-04-05T12:19:00.002-07:00

i have lots of things to say.

but i got no place to say.

i can take it no more.

2009-04-05T12:19:00.001-07:00

i wont give up

2009-04-05T12:00:00.000-07:00

happy birthday sengying!!! had lots of fun today.

i shall be meeting MP tmr. hope all goes well.

if i can give up. i would have done it long ago. maybe time can cure everything. but mine is an incurable infection. my whole heart is infected.

我掉进爱情悬崖
跌太深爬不出来
下降的速度太快
来不及踏上未来

nothing ever stays the same. but if it really have to change, i hope it changes for the better.

i am changing now. but there are some things that i cant change. seriously. like my heart.

if there was another chance for everything that i have done wrong. i swear that i wont let history repeat itself.

i hate myself

2009-04-04T11:07:00.000-07:00

ismy. ismya. ismyaa. ismyaaa.

isly. islya. islyaa. islyaaa.

one more chance is all i need.

2009-04-04T09:59:00.000-07:00

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会
你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读着我给你的伤害

2009-04-04T09:39:00.000-07:00

i'm really tired. very tired.

i dont understand why i can take everything for granted. so much so that i lost everything. EVERYTHING!!! i cannot even do things properly. WTF. i can even fail a FAILED module. how the fuck did i do it. i dont think anyone can find another retarded soul like me. i complained about this. i complained about that. i complained that school was no good. now?

i am really damn lost. all i can do now is start all over again. all from scratch. i think i will have to make the old ong disappear from earth. he suck to the core. i shall create a new ong. a ong that is confident, optimistic, taking life seriously, not taking things for granted, taking pride in what he does, doing what is right and cherishing everyone and everything he have. i must not do things halfway anymore. from now on, its either i dont do it, or i will do my best.

2009-04-03T12:22:00.001-07:00

finally after such along time i came back to blog. haha. alot of things happened during all this time.

maybe its time for me to be strong. to face all the problems i have created. i think i should learn to shoulder all the blames. and stop pushing them to others. seriously, i think i have to take back all the words i have said. i think i was wrong. she always said she was not good enuf for me. i think it is the other way round. i wasnt good enuf for her. i was always doing the wrong thing. people, stop thinking that its her fault. its i who have neglected her. if u want to blame anyone, its me u should blame. not her. i have been thinking about myself all along. and took her for granted. i was selfish, irresponsible, lazy, not doing what i was suppose to do, wasting time, wasting money, leaving her lonely, playful, thinking i was right, always blaming her and ................
so much more. i had so many chances. but i wasted it all. i am really tired. tired of myself. tired of my insensitivity. i now understand that every little thing counts. it really counts.
i watch american pie again. and i understood something. love issnt just a feeling. its something u do. every little thing u do. it really matters. with everything happening at the same time right now, i am not sure i can take it. but i have to learn. i have to grow up. stop being like a baby.and stop blaming every single little bad thing happening to me. its time to let everyone know. what a jerk i was. and saying all this doesnt matters anymore. what i have to do is start changing. change to a better person. change all my bad habits. but i am not sure if i can change my snoring. but i will change. not for the sake of anyone. okok. maybe for myself. its time. really. its time to change. and i shall not wait anymore.

2007-06-08T07:52:00.000-07:00

haha.. sorry darling.
i know i very long never update le.
=)) i finished my exams le. haha. holiday finally.
during this period, i went 'colors or asia' with dar dar. =)
we went out to vivo for shopping=)
i highlighted my hair and dar dar got her haircut. quite cute=))
haha
darling. ur EXAMS coming le wor. must STUDY k?
haax. jia you yah??
=))
i love u.

2007-04-29T04:44:00.000-07:00

haha. its time to blog. let me update on last week. its my parent meeting session with my future parents in law. 'oops' haax.

i hope they like me. =))

her mum is like so fierce.

but her dad was very nice.

her gan ma is so funny. haha.

everyone is nice. lucky i knew her brother. if not more paiseh ah. haax.

haax. i went studying with dear yesterday. =))

its quite fun.haax. i miss her so much today. muackx. haax.

i love yongjia.

2006-07-15T23:49:00.000-07:00

wee.. new blog.. new entry.. haax.
today i woke up at 12.30, still very tired.. sleep for 13HRS le.. next time cannot sleep so much le.. cuz heard that sleeping more than 6 or 7 hrs a day will make someone more prone to "LAO REN CHI DAI ZHEN".. haha..
nothing to do today ah..
oh yah.. yesterday i went for training.. very fun.. so long never play le but never lost my strokes.. train till about 4 go home le.. den found out downstairs go NCC buffet.. den saw lao heng.. he KNS ask me eat so many fishball.. somemore the fishball hard like hell.. den i go put all in DJ de lunch box let him eat.. haha..
oh yah.. when i going to school that time i saw taiyi.. never go training again ah.. haha.. think he having alot of problems.. haha.. k lahx.. tonight i blog again.. cuz nothing mush to write.. =)
I MISS YONGJIA =)